I really wish I could talk to my friends, like a normal person... but I can't. I wish I could go back in time, and never pull what I pulled. I feel guilty, stupid and just the works... This is awful. I hate this, angsty teenage side of me. I wish I could go back to normal, where I didn't have to worry about this kind of stuff. I feel like my world is spinning out of control. I feel like I shou
I'm officially done... I can't believe I did that... why? Why the fuck did I succumb and did that? Why? Can anyone tell me why I decided to not think and tell him? I HOPE THEY FORGET!!!! I HOPE THEY FORGET SO WE CAN GO BACK TO BEING NORMAL! BACK TO WHAT WE WERE BEFORE!! I already know my life is going back to terrible... ever since this. They never replied to me... and why would they? I'm just a fuck up... a fuck up that always has this happen. I feel like doing it again. I feel like opening the scars and just sitting there while they get infected as I get hurt even more. The Vampire everyone once knew is officially gone.
~VampireFoxDemon~ Well... I finally hit it... I now bore him... He doesn't want anything to do with me. He falls asleep when I talk to him. I'm so done. I don' even know if I wanna go back to him and his "FRIENDS" it pisses me off seeing how happy he is with them. I want to be the one... but that will probably never happe
I am kind of depressed. I wish he would stop treating me like a joke and start seeing that I'm right there in front of him. I need him more then anything. This jealousy is not getting better. I'm about to come straight forward to him, but I'm pretty sure I know what his answer is going to be.
~VampireFoxDemon~ |