~VampireFoxDemon~
This morning is one of the worse mornings I have ever had to go through. I'm fighting with him and it hurts. My pills and shots aren't working... and I've already taken what I need and double that. If I need to take anymore, I'm gonna end up living in the hospital. Now with HIM... I told him he can either make it work with me, or he can leave... I'm really upset with him. I've been upset all morning. I'm not sure if Mr. Bigshot was telling the truth about what Mr. Guy was doing with his girlfriend... but I'm pretty sure my guy ended up ruining a relationship... it probably wasn't the one he wanted to ruin... but it was a relationship no doubt.
~VampireFoxDemon~
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My best friend repeatedly breaks my heat, and then doesn't understand why I'm so upset or what she even did to make me upset, then starts to play dumb so I get even angrier at her, so she can lash out with her claws. She knows from the start, what is wrong, yet she always plays the "Dumb, cute and innocent" card. She makes it hard to be friends with her, I just really wish she would stop this, but whenever I try to stop it, she does it again, she hurts me again, and then it just tears me apart. It is true Insanity.
~VampireFoxDemon~ Ok... I say this a lot.. but I seriously i can't be happy anymore. just found out the worst news ever. I seriously feel like this is going to be the end... I really like this guy, and my best friend knows... and I saw how they interacting when they got to know each other... and it kind of pissed me off, but I decided to approach her. I told her "Hey... I think he likes you" and she kind of flipped out, didn't believe me and responded with "No. He doesn't." then walked off and went on with her day. That happened quite awhile ago... but it came back to haunt me. She texted me... like just before i started writing this and told me that he told her he likes her, and that she likes him too... this is a big problem for me... because he is my biggest crush. It's hurting me super bad... and I'm afraid I don't want to be her friend anymore. She is seriously hurting me... like almost everyday. I just can't do it anymore...
~VampireFoxDemon~ I really wish I could talk to my friends, like a normal person... but I can't. I wish I could go back in time, and never pull what I pulled. I feel guilty, stupid and just the works... This is awful. I hate this, angsty teenage side of me. I wish I could go back to normal, where I didn't have to worry about this kind of stuff. I feel like my world is spinning out of control. I feel like I shou
I'm officially done... I can't believe I did that... why? Why the fuck did I succumb and did that? Why? Can anyone tell me why I decided to not think and tell him? I HOPE THEY FORGET!!!! I HOPE THEY FORGET SO WE CAN GO BACK TO BEING NORMAL! BACK TO WHAT WE WERE BEFORE!! I already know my life is going back to terrible... ever since this. They never replied to me... and why would they? I'm just a fuck up... a fuck up that always has this happen. I feel like doing it again. I feel like opening the scars and just sitting there while they get infected as I get hurt even more. The Vampire everyone once knew is officially gone.
~VampireFoxDemon~ Well... I finally hit it... I now bore him... He doesn't want anything to do with me. He falls asleep when I talk to him. I'm so done. I don' even know if I wanna go back to him and his "FRIENDS" it pisses me off seeing how happy he is with them. I want to be the one... but that will probably never happe
I am kind of depressed. I wish he would stop treating me like a joke and start seeing that I'm right there in front of him. I need him more then anything. This jealousy is not getting better. I'm about to come straight forward to him, but I'm pretty sure I know what his answer is going to be.
~VampireFoxDemon~ I'm a 15 year old girl, in denial about who she really is. I'm a psychopathic liar, and lost reality on who she really is. I'm a writer and I have multiple personalities living inside me, even if I might say I don't... that is just one of them. I'm suicidal, crazy and is suffering from a major case of Depression. The doctor's don't know what else they can do to help me. I have a eating disorder and I am only a tiny bit overweight, but suffer from a really bad case of self esteem issues as well. I am broke, damaged beyond repair and taped together.
~VampireFoxDemon I have just developed a eating disorder along with my now growing depression. It's pretty upsetting really, I get depressed with each coming day.
My eating disorder on the other hand is getting a lot better. I am in a rehab class for depression and eating disorder's and it's helping me a bit, but I know it won't take it away. I saw my friends Diana, and Kiki and they got me to eat. I'm so proud of myself. This no eating thing has been going on for almost two months. I hope to eat a lot more soon ~VampireFoxDemon You know what? I'm tired of this. I fucking try to help my friends, and hide my damn feelings for them. So they can go on with their lives and be who they are, and this is how they pay me... by e-killing themselves because they are too cowardly to do it themselves, in the real world. It sucks... being on that end of the string. Do they ever wanna know how I feel? Or if I need help because I've been attempting Suicide so much? No... they just want me to help them again. This happens... over and over and over again. Until they get tired and throw me to the side...
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