I believe it's been getting worse and worse by each minute that passes. It hurts me mentally and physically, and I'm not sure how to end this. I just get so depressed sometimes... I just pretend with all my might to be happy, but really. It's never true... I don't think any of it will be. I started cutting again... my thighs... I don't show anyone there anyway... and when I do, I make sure I put enough make up to cover the cuts pretty good.
I just don't understand. I have everything that would make me happy. I have great friends... I have a wonderful boyfriend... I even have the little things. I just get so depressed at the most. I don't understand why it wanted to trigger now. I used to get it a lot when I was the small alone kid in the beginning of maybe around grade 5ish, maybe the middle of it. It went away and then it came back for the most part.
I've been getting it everyday now. Like it's part of me, which.. I'm pretty sure it is anyway, since, it never actually left me. It's causing my insomnia and a whole crap load of other things to come back.
I just don't understand. I have everything that would make me happy. I have great friends... I have a wonderful boyfriend... I even have the little things. I just get so depressed at the most. I don't understand why it wanted to trigger now. I used to get it a lot when I was the small alone kid in the beginning of maybe around grade 5ish, maybe the middle of it. It went away and then it came back for the most part.
I've been getting it everyday now. Like it's part of me, which.. I'm pretty sure it is anyway, since, it never actually left me. It's causing my insomnia and a whole crap load of other things to come back.
For the most part I've been doing pretty good with my friends, then something that happened long ago decided to come up, and the one who I thought was there for me no matter what, decided to try and get ME of all PEOPLE to change my view on the situation. I've told her a bunch of times I didn't want to change my insights because I've made up my mind and I have a huge thing against that person, and because of that, this person "Can't" be friends of me for "That Reason" It's so dumb. I lost yet another friend because of what fucking problem! Like what the actual FUCK! It's absolute bullshit...
I just wanted to get these things out, the top part was the most part.
~VampireFoxDemon
I just wanted to get these things out, the top part was the most part.
~VampireFoxDemon